Why?
For real, it is a self centred action.
Narcissism.
I will talk about that later. :)
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It has been three months without posting anything and my last post was all about new work place and clothes.
I have tons of things in my mind but writing them down will take me forever. I always want things to be perfect or else I won't do it. That is probably why I have not done anything great. I mean extremely great because of the mindset of wanting things to be perfect.
Once, I shared my plans for my life with my immediate superior.
I shared about what are the things that I am planning to do and I closed my sharing with...
"But.... I don't know. Do you think it is a good plan? What if it does not work and I will only waste my time and resources?"
He shut me up. He said. 'Here's the thing. YOU ARE PARALYSED BY ANALYSIS!'
I was ____________. I can't even find a right word for my reaction.
"Yes. You are paralysed by analysis. You are too cautious! You have all of these wonderful ideas and plans but here you are. Not doing anything! You know why? It is because you think too much! You analysed all of the consequences and probabilities and when you find that there is a chance of failure, you hesitate and procrastinate or even trash the idea! The things that you think are might not even real. Yet you are scared to take action! You are paralysed because of your analysis. Stop over analysing and take action! '.
My reply was just ' Okay. I got it! Thank you'.
When I went back home, once again I evaluated myself. I took a deep thought over the phrase.
Yes. I did! I have always been paralysed by analysis.
There was once, I refused to attend a sponsored training amounting USD $3997.
I refused to attend simply because I had a big project ongoing and stuffing new informations into my brain might distract me from my current job. Besides, the training was in Kuala Lumpur city and it was during raining season. There were few cases of flash flood during that few days and being caught in flash flood is the last thing I want to happen to my car. Alone in the flood and no one to call for help. Bearing the costs of repairing the engine, having to rent a car as a replacement for few days until my car restored, or having the problem going to work. I might get harassed while waiting for the rescue.
Do you see how terrible my 'over analysing'? To be honest, I could think up to four layers of backup plan for failure. I mean.. I do think like that for almost all of my actions especially it is meant for something I never try before. Four layers of backup. Who the hell in the world does that???
If there is, please tell me!
Enough with the possibilities of dangers imagination Len.
Do you see that?
How a possession could make you stop from doing good things.
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Alright... about Twitter.
I replied to The Minimalist Guy's tweet simply because I do agree with one of his tweets.
Being quiet does not mean I did not do anything.
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