WTF Minimalism did to me?

WTF is that title?

Let me tell you what minimalism did to me?

1. I am deeply motivated to reach for my goals.
2. I am focused to things that matter.
3. I can see things clearly and I don't feel cloudy anymore.
4. I feel FREEDOM.
5. I feel like I am getting a full control of my life again.
6. I am being reasonable.
7. I have more space in my house.
8. I have more space for beautiful feelings instead of constant annoyance, irritation and strayed mind.
9. I feel content and fulfilled. Calmer.
10. I am being grateful for things I have.
11. I can relate more to others.
12. I can set boundaries instead of boundaries setting me off.
13. I rarely feel frustration.
14. I can let go of the pasts and move on easily.
15. I feel beautiful for what I am.
16. My debts are dramatically reducing.
17. I hardly feel tempted for buying beautiful useless things.
18. My friends and family are not feeling burden to buy me expensive things to meet my expectation. (I got a candle and lotion for Christmas gift)
19. I learned to give instead of receiving.
20. I feel that I worth more than I've ever been.
21. I've learnt to do selfless acts.
22. I am making peace by not spending time for unnecessary talks like gossipping.
23. I am a difference.
24. I got rid of some of my weaknesses.
25. I am closer to people I love more than ever.
26. I spend time listening instead of judging.
27. I have no envy over other's possessions.
28. I got a hold of my own feet. I don't shatter over silly criticism.
29. I can afford to buy luxury and high quality stuffs which is way cooler than before.
30. I am AWESOME! With or without your approval. ;)

For simple reason, minimalism got me all of the 30 above! So here is my year 2014 resolution.

My Year 2014 Resolution , 6 Jan 2014

I have terrible insomnia. I do sleep at 3am every day and wake up at 9 a.m. I am thankful enough that my working hour is 10.00 am to 7 pm. So, getting to bed early is one of my goal.

When I came back from my hometown after Christmas season, I weighted 59 kg. That is extremely heavy for my size. I've lost 2 kg since January and hopefully progressing well. I had a problem getting my passport earlier but now I have it.. therefore, I make it a resolution to visit at least a country this year considering that I have to clear half of my debt this year. 

What's up with that no.7 ? It is not that I don't wash my face before I sleep and after waking up. However, there are times where I feel too lazy to not to remove my mascara after a long day at work. On my lazy weekend, I do not wash my face right after waking up sometimes. Most of the time, I will only wash my face after breakfast. Therefore, I want to be more disciplined. Not to fail washing my face before breakfast.

At this point (March) running half a marathon seems like almost impossible for me as I have unsubscribed my membership at Fitness First gym. However, to reach my losing weight goal, I am currently working on p90x3 workout program. I am being optimist here.

And yea... I signed up for Mount Kinabalu Via Ferrata on last month for Oct 2014 schedule. Hopefully the weather will be on my side and I will be able to go for it. If any of you are interested to go for Via Ferrata, I got friends who can help to arrange for you.

After all, I am Bornean from The Land Below The Wind. 

Cheeers~~~!

Paralysed by Analysis

I don't really Tweet.

Why?

For real, it is a self centred action.

Narcissism.

I will talk about that later. :)

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It has been three months without posting anything and my last post was all about new work place and clothes.

I have tons of things in my mind but writing them down will take me forever. I always want things to be perfect or else I won't do it. That is probably why I have not done anything great. I mean extremely great because of the mindset of wanting things to be perfect. 

Once, I shared my plans for my life with my immediate superior.

I shared about what are the things that I am planning to do and I closed my sharing with...

"But.... I don't know. Do you think it is a good plan? What if it does not work and I will only waste my time and resources?"

He shut me up. He said. 'Here's the thing. YOU ARE PARALYSED BY ANALYSIS!'

I was ____________. I can't even find a right word for my reaction.

"Yes. You are paralysed by analysis. You are too cautious! You have all of these wonderful ideas and plans but here you are. Not doing anything! You know why? It is because you think too much! You analysed all of the consequences and probabilities and when you find that there is a chance of failure, you hesitate and procrastinate or even trash the idea! The things that you think are might not even real. Yet you are scared to take action! You are paralysed because of your analysis. Stop over analysing and take action! '.

My reply was just ' Okay. I got it! Thank you'.

When I went back home, once again I evaluated myself. I took a deep thought over the phrase.

Yes. I did! I have always been paralysed by analysis. 

There was once, I refused to attend a sponsored training amounting USD $3997.

I refused to attend simply because I had a big project ongoing and stuffing new informations into my brain might distract me from my current job. Besides,  the training was in Kuala Lumpur city and it was during raining season. There were few cases of flash flood during that few days and being caught in flash flood is the last thing I want to happen to my car. Alone in the flood and no one to call for  help. Bearing the costs of repairing the engine, having to rent a car as a replacement for few days until my car restored, or having the problem going to work. I might get harassed while waiting for the rescue.

Do you see how terrible my 'over analysing'? To be honest, I could think up to four layers of backup plan for failure. I mean.. I do think like that for almost all of my actions especially it is meant for something I never try before. Four layers of backup. Who the hell in the world does that???

If there is, please tell me!

Enough with the possibilities of dangers imagination Len.

Do you see that?

How a possession could make you stop from doing good things.

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Alright... about Twitter.

I replied to The Minimalist Guy's tweet simply because I do agree with one of his tweets.

Being quiet does not mean I did not do anything.

Sunway Lagoon - Malaysia

My insanity is certified!

I did Bungy Jump! - 7.7.2013 -

Clothes list

11 Dresses
1 Baju Kurung
1 Baju Kadazan
1 Punjabi Dress1 Shawl
3 Cardigans (royal blue, turquoise and black)
1 Outdoor jacket1 Denim jacket
1 Vest
1 Black Shirt
1 Black Pants
1 Red Blouse
3 Jeans (Black, Blue and Seasoned)
1 Short Pants
3 Workout pants ( white, turquoise, black)
2 Beach pants
2 Sweat pants (long-white, short-green)
1 Zebra pants (will return back to my sister)
12 T-shirts (will return 1 to my sister)
4 Tank Tops
* Occasionally

TOTAL= 52 Clothes

I will make it less than 50!

Extreme minimalist would probably laugh at my list.
However, as for now my state of mind says that I don't want to be an extreme minimalist.
One of the thing that I FEAR in this life is commitment and any sort of restriction (I admitted this on 26 Nov 2012). I hate being attached to anything : almost all things. I did mention about this in my previous blog. No kidding.
Committing to having only 100 things sounds like a commitment to me.
I would stay away from anything that disturbing my peaceful mind.

"We go on multiplying our conveniences only to multiply our cares. We increase our possessions only to the enlargement of our anxieties." Anna C. Brackett